Becoming more of a rollercoaster ride.

We're talking. But so what?

I'm torn between hanging on or giving up. And, either way, I won't be happy. 

Everynight lately, I feel.................. miserable? Is that the right word?

Tonight, the most. Cuz, I knw how much I'm not needed........ or at least, that's what I think.

And boy this breaks my heart. Cuz we had so much memories, so much plans ahead too. Every long bus ride, I think abt how bus ride we shared was, half the place I frequent used to be spent with you too and this ain't helping. I feel lost, I'm not willing to let this go........ I don't want to. 

Cuz when I miss you, you're still not missing me. Are you?