Saturday, May 08, 2010 9:48 PM

Where do i stand?

Sometimes I wonder if I'm the one being ridiculously dependent, or is it people are just now there for me. Last night I pondered for a long time and wondered what happen to the old me, the old you, the old all of you, and the old us. Things hav been changing so rapidly its hard to catch up...... Then I thought about why each time I need you so badly, you just aint the one there for me, or rather, you don't try to be.......... Why has becoming replying texts so difficult, dialing 8 numbers, so difficult, being there for someone so difficult? I've always been trying to change, to be more independent, to understand you more, to be there for you. Always tried not to compare, not to expect so much from you but sometimes it upsets and hurts me too much when i start wondering where I stand in your heart, and how much exactly is it that I mean to you. I thought abt all the happy moments we have, how each time I'm beside you I know I'm happiest and most secure. Then I get confused, what am i to do about this. It's just one thing I'm asking: Being there for me when I need you. Can you?