And, I like that feeling.............

But I don't feel it anymore. Two hours ago i was with my best friend, manda came over to my place.... Again, it was the simple things of meeting your friend even if its for just less than an hour that can bring joy that's beyond words.

Then again, its also one sentence that cld lead to a whole train of thoughts and make you feel stupid, and crush every bit of happiness you accumulated over the week.

Why are the people closest always those that disappoint?

I hate it and don't see how you all can hide things from me for more than months. Don't see how you can hide things like that don't see why such big issues you can hide for me, don't see why you're so old you dont know how to think and think abt my feelings and disappintment i cld feel heartache, heartbreak, ..... still mainly disappointment. You hvnt' a single idea how the feeling is like why can't you be more sensitive. So against this all, I wont hav minded dropping out of school to begin with. I start to think if my achievements actually mean. a. thing. at. all. Maybe it dont. So if these are acts of concern and love, I can live without them cause you got me wrong and you dont understand. So how matter much you love me, I will nevertheless be more disappointed than ever i mean it this time round.