I always thought Adam Khoo workshops were bullshit, but today's session in school wasnt as boring and senseless as i thought it wld be. I mean, it made sense, and throughout I saw my flaws, my point of view..... similarities, differences by which I think these two matters the most and, understanding.  I never thought I wld take such things seriously, but guess as we grow we change and as we get desperate, we try every mean to fight for what we want. So after the session, i thought I saw my set of values, and how I prioritise, feel, and what I was in......... 

Things can't go on like this forever, here I am trying to source for solutions, but then when you really really can't find any..... you give up right? Not that I'm saying be a loser, and step backwards and runaway if you meet with setbacks, but if things remain resillient, then one party has to take a step back eventually and just forgo whatever that satisfies no?

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Rehearsal was tough today, but I didnt know one small comment could make me tear. Guess it falls back about appreciation like what the morning's session talked abt.

Like, I know my abilities etc were far from targetted standard, but believe me I'm trying. I'm not using inexperience as an excuse, I know consequences, and........ I'm really treasuring every chance I get. I was just glad, at least I think I was appreciated for trying even though I fail kind of miserably half the times. And words like this at such point of time means so much to me. 

On another note, I think I'm starting to post more private feelings up this site, but then again, I'm tired of saving the chunks of drafts inside blogger. Today I learnt about people, myself, communicating, compromising, and appreciation and hence........ decided on writing a post like that. 

Not exactly my style, but........................... guess its time to reflect. Y'know as much as I try to hide. I'm not as happy as how I was months ago. And, I miss how things were then.