You made yesterday night the worse of my entire life. It's been ages i cried so badly, the last time i cried that badly was probably....... last december? I hate blogging such shit out... but sometimes there's limit to my tolerance, afterall I'm only human. You won't ever see this or even understand what I'm trying t tell you. It's just not fair after 17 years being with you, you dont understand me at all, you dont see the smallest efforts I've put in, you dont get what I wna tell you, what i want in life, and what's important to me and how i feel. You say you love me, But i thought loving was about understanding and giving me what i want and not what you think i should have. You want me to let go of every single thing now, and throw away this 7 month of memories and hardwork. How about you go and reflect how you'll feel if youre in my shoes? How in the world do you change your subj combi w/o getting yourself retaining when youre in end of July of JC1? And how in the world do you god-damn-it want me to drop out to poly when I've alr long settled down so much comfortably in Ac. How in the world can you even bring yourself to qns about your daughter's character, and how in the world can you even bring yourself to tell me how much you disapprove of me being in my current school. You wanted me to do well for my O's, you wanted me to get into a good school. Isnt this relatively considerably above average already? You want me waste the remaining half of the world, and start a three year poly course now.................................

Why isiz always me having to spare a thought for how you feel. I mean, shouldnt a dad be responsible not just for his daughter's safety but also her thoughts and feelings too? Why isiz then tears rolled down uncontrollably, you continued lashing at me................. lashing at me for everything that i landed myself into, not stopping to ask yourself if I'm satisfied with all my decisions. 

Tmr onwards, You're not gng have to even see the sight or drive into AC anymore. I hope this makes you happier. I will wake up and make my way to school myself. Without you fetching so you wont hav to go thru the thtought that goes 'shit my daughter's in the school i dislike' anymore. This should make you happier shouldnt it. And even if I've t reach school at 6am nxt year, I will get there without you driving me, even if i end at 12mn i will camp overnight at someone's place........  

You make me feel pathetic. Cause you dont even hav friends for you. Cause your friends are just a bunch of superficial people, so you wont ever ever ever learn what true friendship means. So you wont know why wont understand why I wont retain/change my class/leave the school because I wna live my life as how everything is now, with my friends who luv me. Love me ever more than you do. 

We've fought had this dad and daughter fights so many times, but I swear I mean it when I say I aint forgiving you this time................. Yes everything you do, the button that triggered yest fight were all due to your love for me. But then again...... whats the point of loving your daughter when you dont want her to be happy. When you selfishly refuse to acknowledge her efforts, when you forgot what encouragement means?