I feel ...... like a billion words are stuck, like tears just welled up refusing to spill.

I hvnt felt like this for quite a long time.

There was no reason, no particular reason for this at all.

Its like seeing somehting, thus triggering memories, and from one memory linking to another image and then another thought and then another scar and then another pull at the heartstrings.

Current song on playlist : Courage, Superchicks.

Maybe I'm tired of insecurity. Tired of feeling th same way i once felt before. Tired of self convincing, tired of trying so badly to tell myself to be stronger..... only knowing it's hard.

Tired of trying to change things yet seeing no significant change for the better at all. 

Tired of being afraid, scared, scared of .....................

So much stuff. Maybe disappointment too. 

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Terms nxt saturday. I hvnt touched econs. Pw is a pain, esp EoM. 

I need to study. 

4 Sets of drama notes down. 3 thick ones to go..............

I need to figure out how to do graphing, I mean I shldnt fail h1 math right.

..............I've failed all my lit assignments, time to pass them in terms, which means more detailed readng. 

Econs? I dont even see hope. Great.