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Friday, April 18, 2008 9:45 PM
I wrote a letter,   I'd be the happiest ever, with or without. Thankyou Sijia for balloon, and deskpartner for doodling on th balloon for me, So sweet. Balloons cheer me up, really. Was on phone w Amanda just nw and we spent one hour forty minutes on phone!!!!!, Lol. Aw anyway amanda you heard that, my mum say thats my..............................Not yours ley :D heh heh. P.s Xiaozhu is v v v v cute! Aw okay whatever Yesterday poolside studying made me happy (: And i hvn gone swimming for so long time th pool was.........so tempting!!!! , But i got chased out of the o.5metres pool by th security ha ha ha. And....splashing water by th pool esp esp w the hot irritating weather is v v nice!, Okay whatvever, productive studying again, and i feel v v v happy when i get a sense of achievemnt of out studying this few weeks heh heh. And today........., i went for Haircut, my fringe is frigging short now i swearz how t go t school on monday?!!!!!, wlao, but whatever, I still feel.........happy w my haircut although i think v v weird but whatever heh heh told myself eh heck la but then again its so short now my hair irritating irritating okay nvrmind selfcontradiction. And right now i desperately need to get books staring at me, and attempt t eat all the words up and keep them inside th head >:( k, bye everybody happy mugging aw and someone just told me venn diagrams can be oval in shape no need circle wlao i use coin t draw retarded retarded retarded z. " So many questions t th unanswered. So many.....why that i wna ask. Then again, you didnt give me th chance too. I dialed your number, then when it got t th...second last number, i hung up th receiver. No more pressing th number 5. Changed my mind, didnt want t phone you, so I wrote everything dwn, then when i wanted t pass t you th letter in school, your phone was off . Mar de i dontknow what on Earth I'm talking about. I feel so numb from all th feelings i've been getting. So numb i dont even feel like myself. School work, friendships etc etc everything gets on th nerve of me, i get so frustrated and short tempered now i dontknow why. Everyone's been like this. Then when i said crying it all out will help, no more tears flowed down. Th tears......... rolled dwn months ago. No more tears now for me t cry out. What you said was right..... i'm so not myself now. Cldnt even cry not emotional anymore. I feel........ nothing really. So numb those feelings. Inside i was struggling so bad, outside........ everything else seemed so numb. Contradicting but this how life's been becoming. Everytime i said something and meant it, th words were broken. Oh, and hello world I'm sucha failure, fucking failed grade8 piano. You were th first person i felt like calling t tell you, but then th sms you sent th night before..... made it sound as if, you dontwant t talk anymore. " |
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