Saturday, March 08, 2008 12:15 AM

Hi everybody, School today waz a bore as usual, almost every lesson causes depression, pluz so much stuff are weighing everything down i mean it.
Literature class today was plain self-note writing which was ultradumb, but who cares, i need emotional relief by self writing notes and postcards to since no one's gng write any for me. And, i think it helps k. Writting notes to myself just to put another smile on my own face, fcuking no life, but when one gets this drain out to such extend, such things become v v v meaningful go try it.
Pastamania after school w Yuling Zoey today cheered things up abit, i luv creamy and cheesy pasta aha. They're v v v nice heh.

Aww................... and, My Jiuzhaigou tourguide's in Sg and we went out for dinner juz now(!!!!!!!!!) (;
Waz v v v surprised and happy and excited when daddy sms t tell me aha! I miss my tourguide alot k, i dont mind going for tours w the same tourguide cos he's v v v cute plus he can sing uper well, pluz he takes care of us v well and i miss him esp esp all the songs heh heh.
Dinner @ Vivocity was v v nice, but eating spicy food make me sick and the crowd there makes me feel dizzy so easily. And, I LIKE THE NIGHT ATMOSPHERE AT THE OPEN AIR 3RD FLOOR OF VIVOCITY very much i swear. I wont mind sitting there the entire night, esp since if the stars were bright and preety hanging abve like tonight.

I want t go Vivo, shopping spree, but the things there are so tempting pluz ex and im uper broke i need $$, go play there at those areas, go play w water, and every.single thing there, those stupid play areas seem so tempting k. And, i think it wld be super super nice t start camwhoring there aha. Okay, random. But i want go Vivo k, plz lets go for outing at Vivocity instead.

Okay, nothing much more for me to blog, i think this entire week, i've been getting so frigging emotional esp at night i wonder why really. Nights been staring at phone, scrolling down t the same msg, reading it once through, holding back tears. I feel stupid really. I mean, what am i holding on to?,

They say we should have second thoughts considering all the tears that we once teared due t stupid reasons, yet the bestz part of memories i hav surprisingly seem t overweigh the worsez, hardest time i walked through alone despite all the knowledge of it aint worth it. I can feel my heartstring pulling very tightly, as i went on wondering, why, why did you bother to message me in the first place with such a message after so long, i wish i knew the reason why really.

I desperately need a break from schoolwork, theory and practicals for piano, school family everything. I wont mind another day at Ecp, I wont mind sitting there star gazing at some large empty space, I wont mind blowing bubbles right in the open space, or down from my balcony. Wont mind aimless walking down orchard road looking at all the smiling faces of contented shoppers, wont mind spending entire aftnn at the empty stage at vivo, not inside the mall but outside. I wont mind a long long walk down Spore river again...................... just anything that can give me peace, simple happiness, take away all that emotions away.