Saturday, January 26, 2008 11:25 PM

Hello world, i feel i hvn signed int blogger for long hah, anyway i successfully didnt waste time on my labtop from Tuesday till Friday night i think .
Anyway life's been hectic this week filled w tests and etc, i think next two weeks wld be utterkiller sigh. And there's a whole pile of fcuking homework t complete plus tests to study. Screw school really.
And im tired of this all really, a week filled w misunderstandings, miscommunication, on and off feelings. Its stupid how life's been. Misunderstandings a moment......and clearing up and making up after a few hours. If it happen once, i'd be alright w it...........but it just turn out to be a whole fcuking cycle which screw up life. You knw, a whole cycle of repeated happennings that upset one so much.
I think, my mind wanders too much and i think too much sometimes i wonder why. I wish i had someone by my side t hold me tight telling me everythng wld be alright, but sometimes i wish i was alone all the same, away from all that happennings, i need peace really. I wonder why do i keep feeling insecure and uncertain of everything. I hate this feeling but i cant help it. And the thought of changes i see in people arnd me, it just hurts alot, it........breaks my heart. I know i changed too, i know sometimes changes are inevitable, but still.........................i wonder why do people change. Why is it that months later you look back at the person you once was so close with, you feel...........he/she changed this much that he/she feels like an utter stranger t you, yet you miss the person all the same. I feel i've been screwing up alot these weeks, letting down alot of people.........hurting the people arnd me. I feel lost i need something to give me back my sense of directions.

I'd blog a decent post tomorrow Im not in the right mood now i hate my emotions.