I was a happy girl today. I rmb myself telling my best friend im feeling very happy now, very very much happy. I rmb myself smiling today, I rmb myself forgeting the frowns. I rmb saying i feel very high i rmb saying i want to blog about this and blog about that and that im very very happy.

But, I cant bring myself to blog about all the things that made me a happygirl today. I feel fuck up now. I feel life's a total bitch playing stupid MemoryGames with me.

You've got to sum up that perserverance.
Get it over and totally over this time . Stop thinking about what happened.... Its pretty memories that you've got to dump at the back of your head. I cant forget because i still very much do. I can forget all the shyt that happened. But i fail to forget about feeling of......what you call that? Bliss. I think so. My heart still ache, alot. It hurts but i cant do anything. Not anymore. Was i a mere passer in your life?