Sunday, November 11, 2007 12:05 AM

Sighz. And im feeling so fcuking tmd.

I hate it those times to sit through hear through and everything all that nosensically fucking crap stuff. You both make me wonder ............ Arent you ever tired of endless quarrels / tears / complains/ venting / frustrations and every other piece of shyt?!

Its always two sided stories. And both sides pin point the fault on the other. Coldwar / Endless quarrels/ Slamming and the echo of the doors banging away/ Shouting yelling screaming/ Slamming things/ Throwing stuff/ Cursing swearing.
Aint you both ever ever getting tired of it?/

I hate it when you force me put up with all that. I hate it listenning to one yelling the other talking back. And then mummy ending up in tears. Daddy getting so fcuking pissed off and then feeling really unwell after that due to heartconditions etc etc etc. I hate it when i get stuck in the f-ing backseat of the car while parents start yelling off infront of me and i get scolded asking them to not quarrel.
I hate it when i reach home you two start cold wars.
I hate it when you call me into the room, Start telling me everything you aint happy with mummy about. Telling me you think she's down with depression. Scolding nagging yelling venting everything on me.
Moments later i get out of the room, Mummy'd come over finding me venting out yet again, crying tearing and everything. And im there listenning to ridiculous stories of both side. I hate it when i've got to tell white lies. and everything.

I feel sick of this all. Like really fcuking tmd sick of it. And everything else. And now daddy says he aint gng ChinJung wedding tml and aint it putting mummy on the spot?

I hate it. I hate every single shyt quarrel going on.
I hate it when my parents still think im still that girl who is unsensitive and wont care abit abt whats going on. But cant they feel? ... all this while. Every action quarrel everything that happen it hurt me affect me very very much? Or rather did it even occur to them. After time and time again after every pathetic action after so many incidents after all my pleading to stop all those stupid dumb retarded quarrels they still dont get it.

So youre telling me you both are just so fucking selfish parents who cant be bothered to give a crap on how your daughter feels?. How badly hurt she feels? How upset she is? How much tear she fcking wasted because it broke her heart to see you both quarrel. I dont think so.

I dont like bottling. I dont like it when everyone throws me their feelings and frustrations, i got no pathetic place to dumb mine. No one to cry to no one to scream to no one to yell to no one to be there.

I wonder where's the girl . the happy girl with the big nice warm family/
I wonder where the heck her cheerful mummy gone to?
I wonder where the very doting daddy flew to?. I wonder where the person who used to be there to comfort me moved on to.