Tuesday, November 27, 2007 4:52 PM

Sigh Sigh Sighz.
Im feeling.............. Alot. And that's bad good nvrmind i dontknow myself.

I suddenly feel i miss the life last time. Hmms and i dontknow how to define 'Last time' ....
It ain't anything else more.... other than the pehaps more busy life.. the beginning of the year?
I always wished i had time to laze around and do whatever i please for a whole day...... and now when i finally got all the time in the world to do nothing. I feel more than bored.

I flipped through my calendar. Or rather my planner, I realised i missed the kind of almost everyday i have something on life. I dont mind coming home late from school, i dont mind staying up late to rush stuff ........Pehaps because i yearn the feeling of accomplishment later on. I like my old calendar, my old planner, Whereby its filled with colours and all my messy messy pen marks. I dont mind the whole column of tuesdays scribbled with 'O'Lvlmusic class. I dont mind the whole column of wednesdays and fridays crossed out with bold words Rehersals. I dont mind the here and there markings of Studio practices nor the scribbles i wrote like Shows/Plays , Tests, Deadlines, I dont even mind the talentime preparations and deadlines etc which my planner for Feb and March. I like my Busy june holiday. I didnt mind abit, having everyday having something on, Or having camps, Classes etc.

I think being kept busy is more appealing that having all the time in the world now.
At least being busy kept me well-occupied. Admit the stress and everything, But i dont mind a tiny bit come to think abt it. Yes i do very much cry about it here and there , I do have stupid occasional breakdowns. But i like the sense of accomplishments.

I think this blogpost is the weird-est i've written in days. I wonder what's wrong with my head. Nvrmind. Anw Piano tmwr will the shytest hell thing that can ever happen since i haven touched the piano for three pretty weeks. So im as good as being in deep shytz. The pile of homework nicely packed in the file is staring at me and i dont like staring games with it cause it pisses me off. ( And i cant seem to sit still and do it ) . Corner w love is tempting me to continue with episode 28 but Mum's gng kill me if i really do continue Watching. Story books i borrowed ytd are waiting to be read but i suddenly dont feel like reading them anymore because....... romance stories are seriously the crappiest thing(?)

And now I'm wishing my room's abit messier, Cos having it neat now deprive me of packing i can do. I wonder what's up with my head.

I want to need to Plan my holidays.

Someone date me out to watch Enchanted , Study with me please, Force me do my homework, Bring me out to play and make me forget.
Alright enough of my crap. And if you're patient to read through this whole chuck of wordy paragrapgh thankyou :]