Friday, November 30, 2007 12:19 AM

I dontknw what to blog today since the entire day was spent at home D :
Aw i hate it half the world of people i know is out of Singapore now i think. Nvrmind.
And i was in a pretty alright mood for the whole of today ( Or rather yesterday since its current time of 12.24.) ........ until now. I think i got hopeless moodswings Awcrap awcrap awcrap.

The only thing that happened that made me happy today was i finished all 39 episodes of my Zhuan jiao yu dao ai. I think its a really really nice show cause i like the ending. And the show made me cry like omgosh xdontknw how many times. Zzz.

I seriously think i got serious moodswings... argh nvrmind. Im getting frustrated over the least tinest thing on Earth and i wonder why. Gah. And holiday homework is driving the hell out of me. I said i want to finish and get them over and done with Asap. And i realised i haven gone out and have fun enough and its the end of November im left with one.pathetic.month. before school starts and all the shytz stuff happens.. again. The thought of being in secondary four (year two) next year sends shudders. It just upsets me alot. Or maybe not upset. Frustrate pehaps?. It will just be a few mths and the horrible Olvl comes in and nvrmind i dont feel like thinking about it. I dont feel like growing up. I think growing up one of my regrets. Ohshytz i think im sleep talking cause i've got no idea i swear what im talking about even.

I think im being randomly hopeless these few days. I wonder why. I think of dumb random stuff just every now and then. Today i was talking about dumb friendship probs with mummy and then i realised she's right........ i never knew how to treasure friends until i feel i lost them. Until times when ir ealsied situations cant be salvaged, i still refuse to give a phone call nor sms to friends im losing. I wonder why, Why i rather be headstrong. Why i dont want to admit im wrong, Why i cant keep and treasure friends i really love well enough.

This year has been a long but quick year all the same. I rmb making new friends this year...... but losing them within months all the same. I rmb patching up with oldfriends........ and then losing contact with them again. I rmb the times when friends scold me for being dumb, naive and everything. I rmb times when people tell me yinghui im disappointed in you. I rmb times i cried during phonecalls with some special friends. I rmb times when the phonecalls just suddenly disappeared. I rmb times when i felt so lost.

I hate it when i lose friends i know that has been truely good to me........yet i rmb myself taking things for granted. Its the dumbest thing on Earth to do. But i cldnt help it. I rmb all the tantrums i threw, all the emo shytz i gave some people......... At first they didnt mind. but slowly, they lost patience with me.

I wonder if the friend who used to stay on phone with me at night the beginning of this year still rmbs those night we laugh our hearts out.
I wonder if the person who promised to be there always still rmb his words. I wonder if the story of Water and flower have already left his memories.
I wonder if the person i grew up with rmb the friendships we shared.
I wonder the person i haven talked to for years still realise her friend does stop by to think of her.
I wonder why i dontknw how to treasure friends well enough to make them realise theymean something to me.

Nvrmind i seriously doubt anyone'd understand this dumb blogpost. But i cant find anythng else to blog about other than this whole shytz of gushing emotions.

Nvrmind Goodnight Planet. ......... And hello to another boring day ahead ):