Tuesday, July 17, 2007 3:06 PM

Im not getting over you, and this is so not getting me anywhere.
Come on, i know already, i mean i've now realised AWHILE means for for good. for forever.
I didnt know i was wrong till yesterday. I doubt you'd know how hurting it feels now.
i really do love you wholeheartedly for the past 3mths plus and till today, i still do . But its just over between us And i was the last person arnd to know cause you said its only for awhile dear. but no, now the story suddenly CHANGED. its. we're over. And you're hiding it frm me.

imissyou alot. i missyou so. so very very much. But its pointless, cause you dont nor will you. for everythng's fading. including those promises right?

I've got nothing to say now you know. There's so so much tht i appreciated for what you did. And i thought we told each other we're spending more than a lifetime tgr?

I rmb you going all the way home to get a letter for me cause you blurly left it at home, And then coming all the way back to pass it and give it to me at my hse,
I rmb you sweeping the floor for me cause i didnt want to do it and mummy wanted me to
I rmb you washing the dishes in my kitchen And not minding a single bit.
I rmb you giving me my first rose and till today i've got tht rose nicely dried and its STILL on my table with a vase and ribbon.
I rmb the smses you sent to me which were so damn sweet,
I rmb stuff you told me that made me very very touched.
I rmb you telling me we still have lifetimes together.
I rmb you telling me our forth month's gng be better
I rmb you laughing at how dumb or stupid i was and even though i complained i didnt mind a single bit.
I rmb you drawing and writting notes for me during Music classes.
I rmb you going to collect the SS files i was supposed to go get from MsGan but i was way too lazy to and you offered to help me
I rmb you going to get Vanguard for me cause the class needed it and i was way too lazy to go get them, and you not only got me that stupid piece of paper, you bought my PANDA as well.
I rmb going over to your place and we sat by the staircase at your house there folding paper hearts tgr and that time was one of the most very memorable ones for me.
I rmb you getting all sweaty running to get stuff for me in school
I rmb you walking me home, the way you held my hands and walked me all the way home almost everyday after school if we hav the same dismisal time, or even when dismissal times was different we still spend tht time tgr most of the times last time.
And then I rmb us having icecream tgr many times.
I rmb telling you that we're not just gng stay SWEET forever, but CHOCOLOATE too.
I rmb the times we sat by lakeside and you skipped stones for me to see
I rmb the times we spent tgr at that Staircase during breaktimes
I rmb the times we 'studied' together before midyear at Macs and at my place
I rmb the several times you played the piano for me at my house
I rmb the way we played Cannon In D tgrr and i screwed up the piece halfway.
I rmb the time we did talent time ENRAPTURE decoration glow in dark stuff tgr, and even though we werent tgr that time, you was still really really nice to me.
I rmb the time where you ran all the way from AHA room to backgate during selfstudy just to check if i was okaye and safely walking home myself cause you bu fang xin me walk home alone
I rmb you sending me for piano classes
I rmb every single sweet / caring/ thoughtful/ best/ everythng you did for me darling.


But it just gng be the same anymore.
Youre' the bestboyfriend i can ask for even though at times i really was pissedoff with some stuff with you. But again, love and everythng you did for me over rules everythng now.
You wont know how i feel.
You wont know how much i cried just cause of you , and i know everyone else says it aint worth it. But i cant help it.