Sunday, July 22, 2007 11:39 PM

I think i know you've kept me blocked yet again on msn darling.
But yet again, when i saw your msn nick, my heart strings just felt a tinge.
I didnt have the courage to go talk to you even though i want to, and i know tht even if i try to, you'd probably say youre busy cause we both want to avoid each other for now.
I saw your msn pm, lonely. Isnt this how i thought i felt also?
But if we could still be friends for each other, maybe it wld have helped a tiny lil bit?
I dontknow.
Its a week now. I cant help it. It just still hearts alot, the mention of your name, the sight of you, the sight of anythng tht reminds me of our times together. They just seem to start pulling those heartstrings and tears just seem to roll down, i cant help it either.

Wo zhen de hen xiang ni.

But it probably wont matter, sometimes it just felt like you're better off without me, i see the way your laugh with your friends the way you seem to have everythng perfectly okaye.
At least you managed to put up a brave front even if youre upset, or rather, if youre truely happier with life now; obviously im glad also luh.

I tried pretending. I really tried, i tried doing and keeping myself occupied with other things to do. But it just dont seem to work. It works for awhile. But yet again, after that it just still seems weird without you around.

I dontknow what to do, it just feels weird without you arnd in my life.
Ijust feel damn lost.
I just feel damn heartbroken you've left me.

Can you please come back ?


&friendships hurts. Some really do. I read your blog and its like im sorry. Ididnt know im such a pain. I didntknow im so fucking selfish to you. I guess we have different definitions of friendships aye? Cause i really regard you as bestfriend also, but i just didntknow bestfriends cant be there when each other need them. Imean yes i know you've tried very hard to help me already, i know youre sick of repeating stuff to me i know im such a pain you cant fucking stand me, but please understnd i need someone now. And i'd appreciate alot if you'd bear with me and not seem to but dont mean it.
that blog post of yours hurts alot girl. im sorry for being such a pain but please bear with me? please and i do appreciate youre being damn nice to me alreadyy sigh i dontknow.




i feel fucking screwed.
Seriously i think i shld just choose someday and walk across the highway or smthng.