Sunday, July 22, 2007 12:46 PM

The first thng tht went to my mind today when i woke up was that you aint arnd with me or for me anymore.
I dontknow, i dontknow why even after one week of struggling through my thoughts, such emotions greeted my sunday.

Darling i really do missyou now.
i really really do already.

I hate myself, i hate life now.
I hate waking up early in the morning crying all over like the world's so over.
I hate grandma looking at me with those eyes expression of hers asking me whts wrong with me yet again, why im upset again, why im so damn quiet today.


I didntknow the reason.
All i know now's that i still feel fcking empty.
empty without you darling.


Idont like everythngs thts going on now
I dont like being so damn lonely
I dont like those nights without someone or rather you to accompany me on phone.
It just feels feels all out alrght.



I know you wont come back anymore.
I know you aint gng come back to my side.
I know you'd love me no more from 7days ago.

But i still dontwanna face up to reality.
I dontwant to.
Im still praying this all a nightmare, i'll soon be over.
Im still praying you'd come find me again one day and we'd start afresh.


Those words ' just please forget about me' rang in my ears time and time again.
And those tears cant help rolling down even though im trying to cntrl already.