Sunday, June 17, 2007 10:11 PM

just a bit of heartfelt feelings before i go out blogging about BNo5,o6 CHALET(: in the nxt post (:

you taught me what love truely means and what my life is about(:
you made me realised im a lucky girl and seriously, i dont have reasons to be upset anymore. and i cried once again yesterday because i swear, im touched by your actions.

maybe it was the long talk last night and all that crying out that helps alot.
and now i seriously do realised i think im considered lucky. it was all because i didnt knw how to cherish and treasure in the past how to appreciate and be happy with stuff. but but im gng treasure, cherish appreciate frm today onwards(:

maybe in the past and all this while, i still do very much blame my parents for losts of stuff, probably esp heridity and their long quarrels they have with each other. but after last night, the talk with boyfriend i realised all this while i wasnt appreciative and i thought my parents didnt understand but the fact was that they truely do understood me. i shld have and cld hav been more appreciative in the past i guess, i mean i've got a mummy who aint like the others. she gimme all the freedom in the world i want as long as they are reasonable. she wont scold me or anythng when i flunk midyears that badly, infact the day i went home and cried after getting results i ended up shopping with mummy and she bought me clothes and assessories to cheer me up. i mean how many mummy on earth wld go do this? and and despite everythng i have my daddy who made me his princess or smthng. seriously maybe all along i know they do love me alot. just that at times when i got upset i denied and refuse to believe. and i was guilty for i realised how many a times the way i talk to them and ranted at them just because i cldnt cntrl my emotions hurt them alot. like really alot i guess. i realised how much they wanted me to be a happy girl and stuff. but but im really really not going to let stuff upset me so easily anymore(:

p.s. to boyfriend thanks for being the super sweet understnding boyfriend who goes to all expense just to takecare me and make sure im happy(:
i mean what you did last night really made me super touched you know. cause ir eally really didnt know it hurts you so much when i cry and that you'd go through and do so much just to find out why i was sad and to try help me get back the cheerful side of myself. And it was the whole entire conversation last night that made me realised so much and i think it do make a difference. thanks alot alot alot alot and i cant do without you dear! (: