Wednesday, May 16, 2007 9:27 PM

sigh okaye im feeling like total shyt once again.
today's just been a freaking bad BAD BAD BAD day.

like wtheck?!


just went read yuling's blog then i realised theres smthng she said that i must admit is so right. the school system . if they see that you FAIL subjects, they take it as you DIDNT study and probably send you for detention class or smthng and make you freaking burn your holidays in school. but thats not the pointe. i mean okaye fine, if you want to send me for detention class and burn my june holidays, im like okaye with it. but the pointe is. i dont like it that you all would think i DIDNT study. cause this midyear. i really got study and i put in effort already. then the result want to come out like shyt lidat i cant do anythng either. like wtheck? please i STUDIED hard already and i tried my best and my results just DONT SHOW. wtheck am i suppose to do luh?!?

i think im a major great big disappointment.
im disappointed in myself. and i disappointed my parents. and disappointed maybe some teachers who think i might have done better. and maybe i disappointed boyfriend bestfriends and leon. sighhh.

i dontknow how on earth am i suppose to tell mummy and daddy that i flunk like so many of my papers. i think they'd be damn disappointed and might even think i didnt study and that all that period of studying outside during exams i went out playing which i DIDNT. cause i really went studying and i've been like staying up late till 2plus to study and make notes and understnd all that crap which i dontknow.
i mean like okaye mummy and daddy wont scold me or anythng if they know i fail. but the pointe is that they'd give me that look and i'd know they're disappointed and the feeling just suck. yeah it hurts alot. cause i dontwant to disappoint them. and they were expecting at least Bs. but like everythng were Cs and Ds and Es and Fs?!

i flunk my SS+egeog which means i FLUNK combined humanities. and then i FLUNK physics. and then i FLUNK amaths. and i barely passed my english by 0.8% and Hcl by 4 pathetic marks?
why the hell am i such a failure can?! like this MYE not common tests and i FLUNK like that?!

yeah & maybe you ppl out there will be like thinking ehh cheerup alot people did worse then you or i failed also what. but thats not the pointe. cause i dont feel like comparing my results with others like that. im comparing my results with MYSELF. and my standard. get it? i dont believe this the max i can do. cause i know i cld hav done better. i just dont get why the hell i screw my midyear lidats.

call me a total failure.
whatever.