Monday, May 21, 2007 8:38 PM

i've done everythng i need to do to try please you all.
if you cant appreciate and feel that im still a total screwup and just BAD or smthng.
forget it okaye. im sick and tired of every single thng happenning.

and everythngs not going my way. it just likes going the Opposite of what it should be.
i dont get it
and maybe on second thoughts nothing BIG is upsetting me but its just the emotions bottling inside and i cant control them alright. okaye?!

like wtheck. life sucks.

i think ths the like how many time this week im saying that lifesucks in my blogpost. ohwell.

and today check results and like i flunk FOUR subjects including music
like four?! plus i swear i did study . id ontknow whatswrong. didnt study enough, didnt study the correct way or didnt put in enough effort. sigh. yeah so there goes my june holidays i guess. and and mrloh was super sweet cause he FAILED my practical. and he gave me a straight fail you know. not border line fail can. how nice): and he told me not to drop music cause i got potential in song writting. just that the only thng is that i get nervous and CANT play piano with audience like wow. omg luhhh. im like dead. i think im gng flunk music straight.UNLESS UNLESS i start studying music and start spending more time on music and prioritize it. ohwell.
yeah and then during recess met kaijin on way to find boyfriend & felt awful when he commented. MD one also fail 3subjects arh i got nothing to say alright. seriously. i got nothing to say not that i blame him for making that comment or what. it aint his fault but hello. why are people like that?! sometimes it aint about the class you are in whether youre in the top class or what you know. ohwell. i really got no comments alright=/

dont feel like posting much now.
im just T I R E D . like v e r y . you know.
im sick of the cycle we face everyday and the life we all are leading.
sometimes changes makes a difference. but at other time they screw you up even more.
life 's like that hurh. ohwell.

i feel like g i v i n g u p on everythng


the insecurity and coldness sigh.