Saturday, April 14, 2007 10:56 PM

went out with HUIXIN tday cause i cant stnd being at home. there are like at least 15 stupid people contributing to noise plus air pollution doing cleaning up and renovation work at home today. its super noisy and dusty and it freaking pissed me off a whole lot. so i end up going OUT. sighhh sorry boyfriend. i know youre being super nice to want come find me in the morning. but i wasnt feeling very well thts all i told you dontwant. sigh sorry. i wanted so much for you to come visit me at my place. and i didnt mean it. sighh.
and then i regretted but it was too late. ohwell.hais.


went out with huixin. that girl was abt 15 to 20 min late AHEM >< hahas nvrmind! then we went yoshi at marina square to have lunch, walked around at marina there, i saw tht CROWN belt and wanted to buy. but decided not to. i dontknow why.haha but i so want tht crown belt luhh! awwmannn.and and stupid huixin was coincidentally wearing tht with her jeans and i was jealous=/ then we had anderson's icecream before heading to esplanade library :D it was nice and and i was SLOW in eating icecream AGAIN. huixin finished hers and i was not only halfway thru mine.fine fine. then went to esplanadee and it was nice. some super pro guy was playing piano at tht transparent glass studio there and serious;he is GOOD. very very good and i was listenning to him play while studying physics there. and i finished studying chapt 4 physics! and yupp then was browsing at some scores there also and i realised i wanna be nlb premium member so that i can borrow those scores nxt time(: yupp then at near four huixin and i became slack and decided to go bugis shop/ walk arndd.
yupps. and then went thr.went to ICON there. its a nice place someone like bugis street the stuff they sell there. but its less crowded infact nobody de. and its SUPER SMALL super tiny. 6storeys. and i was hinting to huixin what necklace i want (: hehhh catch the hint anot huixin! lol. then we wanted to take neoprint but decided dontwant cause crowded and huixin gng be LATE for cdc. so took 197 back to school and i was a nice friend and walked tht girl to school and then walked back home again! stupidd luhh i cld have just walked hme straight away but yet i walked all the way.ohwell wadvr(: anyway huixin CHEERUP dont stress le okaye. we jiayou tgr!



sighhh and now i dont feel like posting anymore.
wadvr.hais

i dont get it. why's stuff turning lidat for us. its been just thirteen SWEET days. the nicest day of my life and i loveyou. i truely do. but why on earth are we lidat now? sighh/
i trust you okaye. fully completely trust you. but do you? why you always asking stuff as if you dont trust me lidat? and i so wanna meet you ytd and tday. but sighhh. nvrmind.
can you please trust me again. like how you once did. im true to you. whole heartedly. im sorry if sometimes i say stuff which are hurtful. but i just so hope you'd understnd that this few days had been bad for me. so i tend to get frustrated just lidat. i cant control my emotions.
pleasse pleasee pleasee understnd. sigh i dontknow what to say. your sms-es jsut now are HURTING.very. i just wish you understnd how i feel.

the stress are suddenly piling all over again. EIGHT days to midyear. i cant cope a single thng not tht i dontwant to. i feel like getting a knife. and stabbing it right through me for now. its already hurting alot already anyway.


i dontknow how to treasure you well enough do ii? iloveyou. i truely do.