Saturday, April 07, 2007 2:17 PM

sighh.hais.
i know i promised you i'd be goodgirl and go studyhard now and do logs and other homeworkbut hais i dontknow how to do luhhh.and its so pissing me off.
its like from the START the very start and basic of logs i cant understnd already
and there is a indices,surds,log test on wednesday. and i went tuition with michelle yesterday but still didnt get a single thng in to wht MrLim was trying to tell me.and i told him i'd get the basics right bfore i go tuition again TML. but hello. does it look like its even possible?
sighh.
i suddenly feel like my schwork is so so so flopping liike crazy. and i failed chemistry with F9 for term one and mummy was like so super disappointed when she saw result slip. and my L1R5 was like TWENTYONE do i look like i can go any JC with TWENTYONE pointes.sighh. i suddenly feel stress already luh; like awmann its just like the beginning of the year and im doing so so badly. and what'd happen by olvl when we learn more stuff and the paper gets HARDER? lidat might as well kiss goodbye to dreams of going NJ,VJ,HCI? i know im being like stupid again. cause im aiming for such JCs which i myself am very clear tht i cant make it there. like helloooo. HCI? NJ? VJ? godd. its like so not possible. yet i wanna aim high even though i know the highing i aim the more disappointment i'd feel. whats my freaking problem luhh?!
okaye and i dontknow why im thinking so much again. i cant help it. im just feeling ALOT now.
blame LOGS. i cant stand it. its pissing me off totally i dontknow how to do at all. sigh.
i TRIED studying. nothng goes in. and tht stupid stupid stupid foolscape is filling with "LOG" and NUMBERS. and i cant stand it.

and i hate living here now i feel so super distant from my family. the feeling totally suck like crazy. sigh i dontknow how say already. but seriously. does my parents even freaking care abt how i am doing now or how i feel? i mean yes im glad they aint so super naggy like some other parents but can they just show some care and concern? and then mummy sent me an sms last night and i cried luh. hais. its like on the surface, everythngs so okaye. but deep inside she cant undersntd me a single bit, she dont get what i need what i want. and i cant believe me and mummy nidda communicate and speak our heart feelings via SMS now. its like hello?! sighh.
and i cant stand if when meii just talk to me with tht kinda damn tone. its like im her elder sis. not the opposite. cant she just show a least bit of respect? talk to me nicely. instead of ranting at me. i got enough of it already lahh. everytime she start ranting and shouting at me. i give in to her. but who will give in and b nice to me in family if thts the case? why is everythng MY FAULT. even like if thngs aint tidied or kept properly its AS IF ITS MY FAULT?

i cant stand living lidat i hate tday's weekend totally. i mean it.
and those people are still doing renovation work and going in and out making loads of

sigh nvrminddd.
phone rang and im on phone now.please cheer me up with your phone call.PLEASE