Wednesday, March 14, 2007 9:47 PM

i realised i got ALOT to blog about. but i guess i dont have the time hurh
its WEDNESDAYE.yeahh and i HAVEN STARTED on hwk except ABIT of matrix and i think im so DEAD.

seriously this holiday everyday is like DRAMA in sch for morning till early aftnn. might as well have it as NORMAL sch days? not much a difference you know. and somehow LESSONS seem BETTER than drama session now
i hate to admit. but drama sessions this days are DISAPPOINTING. very. didnt tht yinghui LOVE and enjoy all her drama sessions. didnt eds ROCKS alot?? sorry im doubting the answers for ths all question now not tht i want to. i know if xinyi; tony; sunthai; ceicilia; shannon and any other seniors reading ths post probably will be DISAPPOINTED in me now for dreading drama sessions. but sorry i CANT HELP It.
i hate it when i screw up and stumble on my lines again and again. i hate it when SHE keep emphasizing tht im still using throat voice and tht im NOT loud enough. but thts the loudest i can go alright. and i TRIED MY BEST ALREADy. its either im plain DUMB or smthngg. since i cant get my lines loud and right. you cld hav KICKed me out of cast from the start. everythng i do just seems WRONG. but i triedd my bestest alreadyy. and syf is like in how many days. and the whole thng is like..ohwell.
i want at least a SILVER for syf. didnt i just post tht we TREES WILL MAKE IT. didnt i say eds ROCKS and tht we're so gng make it ths year since its our last syf for our batch? yeah i DID. but right now idontknow what on earth im thinking and stuff already
im really get REAL SICK of all the rehersals and esp the way she make us repeat. cant she just be a little MORE encouraging instead of making us repeat the scene again and again lidat?
ohwell. i know im being unfair saying such stuff. just GET OUT of my blog if you dontwanna continue reading i wont and cant stop you from clicking tht backspace button or tht [X] at the top of your com screen can ii?
i wish i NEVER was in main cast for ths syf.SORRY.
and i knw i kip screwing up.sorry alright. i cant do anythng more already. ths the BEST i can do.


and tml's thursday. and its gng SUCK like crazy. and suddenly everythng falls on THURSDAY. theres drama as usual. theres supposingly TUITION.theres tht dumb idiotic appt at hosp. and i DONTCARE. i wont go. i really wont wanna go. and somehow i will talk mummy out of draging me thr. thr aint any point in going and i alr knw wht he will say when he checkme. and i dontwanna hear wht he wanna do about it or wadvr crap. i dontwant alright. so i wont go. at least not till when im prepared if tht idiot will want gimme any bad news. and then tml got classouting which i dontsee y they have it tml. i dont even knw if i wanna go. threemodestyo7 is so not bonded YET and im missing 2bno6. and didnt you call and ask me out tgr with them tml. y you being so cold to me AGAIN. it hurts luhh. wadvr i guess i wont be in the mood to join the fun with you ppl anyway. so ohwell count me out alreadyy we meet up another time bahh. [i knw you wont be reading ths post anyway i guess; but owell.nvrmindd.]

i got nothng to say right now. im just disappointed and upset with loadsa stuff.


and yeahh you guys have been GREAT friends.

messages;
[1]its been ages since we last had a nice talk. &i was glad you still told me you still regard me as a friendd. was really cheered up when i cried ytd yet through it realised tht the FOURyears friendship haven ended just yet(: thanks.&&yeah i WILL return you a smile the nxt time we meet bahh. probably not tml alr.sorry.but i will still keep tht promise i made last night ;; &you'll forever stay as tht dumb deskpartner i had for two years and i wont forget nor have i forgoten you luhh! ohwell; hahh rly dno if you will pop by to read not?hah]

[2]&i know you're pissed with me for last night when i criedd and got so super emo. yeah you yourself also right bah. you cant change how i think right. cause if you can. i'd beg you to do so alr.but you cant. all you say make sense.really. and i still DO appreciate you. but ohwell. can you please not be so harsh. cause it hurts even though i knw you meant well.

[3]&iknw you're reading ths. thanks for being such a SUPER great sweet and nice friend i ever can have. and i mean it; thanks for being the only one keeping me company now; for willing to be there and staying here with me through all the rough stuff.thanks loads.and ohwell.read tht reply i will pass you tml bah(:
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