Wednesday, February 28, 2007 8:15 PM

this gng be a really emo and sadd post. i know some ppl cant stand me when im really depressed so please dont read it if you knw this postwill affect you or upset you. just hit tht stupid BACKSPACE button on the right side of your keyboard or just click on tht [X] at the top right corner of your com/labtop screen alright. you dont hav to read this post if you dont feel like it for godsake.


i think today's been really a bad day can. from midnight 00am till now.

for godsake did you realised tht i cried when you treat me like tht when i called you at night.
how on earth can i forget your bday larhh. call you at 12 wish you happy birthday. but thts the reply you gimme. can you PLEASE spare a thought for me? its hurting okayye. youre the one who sms me to call you cause you wanted to talk. and then you're also the one who used such tone on me like tht on phone even when i wished you happybday. i knw its over btwn us and like yeah duh. but you dont nid treat me like this right? ask me call you then i knw i called at 12 instead of 11 but i wanted to wish you happybday at 12 thts y i called abit later. and please larhh you make me call then like play me out lidat. its like stupid of me right. to call someone and get your tone back like that in return. okay wadvr.
please watch your tone its hurting.
i wonder y i even bothered calling you at 12 to wish yuu happy bday tday.


classes today were okaye.just tht i slept through half of them cause i really was really really tiredd.

after school got drama at 230 tday.
sorry i dontwanna say ths either de.but i think drama today upset me alot.
can just take it tht i feel so awful now partly also cause of stuff at drama bahh.
hais.
sorry TREES i know i screwup my lines and positions today. i think im like missing so many drama sessions cause i've been so sick ths few days for the last two weeks.
sorry i knw im like doing really badly and yet syf is on the 18APRIL.
and theres THREE SCHOOLS doing the same play THE SILLY LITTLE GIRL AND THE FUNNY OLD TREE.so unbelievale tht this play is so popular lurhh.and cchms is the LAST grp of the three with same script.which means we hav to work TRIPLEhard and tht compeition is so tough.
and then i realised tht in the first place i SHLDNT hav gotten myself into main cast. im totally not up for it. all along i thought tht thrs still time for me to catch up and improve but NO. dead no luh. syf is like so coming and i think thrs such a big big obvious difference btwn the way i get my lines and the rest of the cast. sorry people.
im still saying my lines from my throat voice which is WRONG. but i dont seem to get it right. and after missing out so many drama sessions i realised thrs some changes and i dont even knw when's when for the first run. totally lost thts y ended up lidat. i cant get my vision FOCUS AT ALL. and thts bad. i just totally suck and i dontwanna screwup our drama SYF. it means ALOT ALOT. but i feel tht im totally doing a real bad job of it. i hate myself alot for it. and i still dont get y im doing this role for syf. i shld've done backstage or smthng and maybe i wont end up stressing myself lidat getting so upset and endup screwing the play.
people. sorry.
and thanks loads wenfong for telling me tht it was a nice try i had tday even though i still think i screwed stuff today. thanks lots cause yeah its jsut a line but it rly made me feel better alr luhh. yeahh. and i hope you are right tht it wasnt tht bad luhh.
and i feel so out of place. i suddenly dont hav tht feeling for drama anymore.sorry.
i feel totally OUT OF PLACE during session tday. i knw im being so unfair staying all tht stuf now. i cant help it. and am jsut feeling totally upset now.
call it OUT OF PLACE alright. somehow i felt so like that tday. and i bet no one even realised i almost cried i knw maybe today was really a bad day for me esp aft wht happen at night i knw im in a bad mood and being totally unreasonbale saying such stuff. srryi knw im getting totally emo. why on earth did suddenly everythng and everyone arnd me turn cold it hurts alot.

sorry im crying already. i cant cntrl my emotions. i dontknw wht on earth im doing either.

and gawd. i dont even understnd a least bit of whts going on for half of all the lessons. esp AMATHS.physics and chemistry. i think im so gng flunk everythng
and thrs still EGEOG.SS AND HCL TEST NXT WEEK. and its talentime week and i seriously wonder if its possible to finish those DECO by then. no one's exactly cooperating to stay back and help with deco. and all CCAs all all so busy.


sorry i cldnt stand being lidt anymore. i really dontknw how contrl my emotions and feeling. maybe im really feeling very emo tday. cant help it. ignore ths post.