Thursday, February 01, 2007 11:01 AM

i didnt go to school today AGAIN
cause im rly unwell and all tht stupid medicine didnt help and i rly hate it

and right now im home alone and tht feeling sucks
when youre so unwell already
and then youre alone just all alone and you dont feel like doing anythng
i feel sick
as in really sick but also sick of life and everythng all over again
i rly feel like crying just crying everythng out

i guess i really cant be left alone half the times cause ths when i start thinking so much all over again
i dontknow whts gone wrong into me

i read wenbo's email all over again. overseas friendship can never ever work out can it?
i suddenly wish i never did went to chongqing last year. cause maybe if i didnt i'd probably have one thng lesser to worry and cry about already right?
i really missed him suddenly and all those chongqing friends they were really really very nice and those two weeks i had was really memorable
wenbo was really really a very great overseas deskpartner and yeah i cant believe tht email is rly typed by him. i cant believe he took TWENTY-NINE days to reply my mail and tht tht was wht he wrote in tht short email.. did he even remembered how he used to mail me and wht he use to say? i cant believe im losing one special friendship already

and somehow i got reminded of OUR past again
i wonder if i really wronged you
but again so what if i did and so what if i didnt?
i dontknow. i dont have a clue to my answer eitheer
i dontknow if you'll still bother to visit this site?
but remember that poker card and straw heart you gave me?
its still in my wallet with me EVERYDAY
i admit at times i realy hated you alot but i realised i still haven let go though its time i should
it was a pretty past even though the times i cried and got so upset because of you hurts alot
maybe i didnt mind being hurt just in exchange for a tiny little bit of love from you
but i guess its okay. and i was the one who suggested tht i dont blame you or anythng
i just want to move on and forget
i dont wanna cry again cause of such stuff again

life's lidat and upper sec is really stressful.
supposed elit test today and i MISSED it already and to think tht i spent my ENTIRE yesterday sleep reading to kill a mocking bird till chapter SEVEN thinking i WILL GO SCHOOL today but ended up waking up at six feeling all so terrible and decided not to go school. arghs. nxt tuesday Amaths test. friday hcl test. then week seven monday physics test. tuesday chemistry test. kill me lahxx. omg. im like so dead lah. and i rly haven been studying a least bit.
i just didnt
i hate myself rly.

im crying all over again already.
i just feel a million things piling on me
i know you people CARE but you dont seem to care at the same time
can someone out thr just TRY to understnd me a LITTLE BIT just a little bit okay? and spare a thought about how i feel. be there when i cry and needed a friend around

i cant stnd being alone when my world is tearing apart