Saturday, February 24, 2007 3:10 AM

finally done with that talent-time deco proposal thing.
i think endup most of the ideas rachel help me with it larhh so paiseh. but point is i think im DONE with it already. basically the idea is out already. tml just maybe touch up abit monday can okayye le.
hais scared me larhh. i thought confirm die de. today say do. monday must handin. but its still turn out okaye i guess and okay i end up doing it myself lehxx. tml morning then call jiayu and geneviene see they want add in more stuff anot lor :/

i know its late. and i thought im like very tired and gng sleep le. but i realised i cant get to sleep either. hais. no one to talk to now le. so late 3plus no one awake also larhx.

i know im getting emo again ths few days. but really cant help it.
maybe is really very stress with all the so muc stuff coming up and schoolwork also. plus family also like so messy larhh. so much disputes lidat de i also dontwant say alreadyy.

i know i cant get upset over all this. i really cant. i knw tht wadvr happens i shld still stay strong and face it cause i guess after awhile also will okayye de. but i just feel like suddenly very tired of everythng.

and my dearr friend. i really dontknow what you thinking.
i cant believe you can so straightforward say lets stop being friends lahh.
you know its like just FOUR words but it HURTS alot?! i know i sounded totally pissed and all in tht sms. but i just wanted to tell you to stop being so upset and cheerup and tht i really care even if you want doubt me. i didnt knw you will take it the wrong way. maybe ths few days have been really really bad for me. i know im selfish at times. sorry but this time i still yet to figure out y you suddenly like that to me.
i dontwant friendship to just like that larhh. friendship THAT fragile? i really dontknow.
i really really wish you didnt mean what you said just now. sorry okayye.



When things are in a mess, there can be grace; When things are in a mess, there can be beauty. It's just like our lives, things can get messy sometimes, but it's through these moments of misfortune, we grow and learn.

-- thanks to tht person who sent me this sentence you foundd.its not like i read le then forget also larhh. is got try to get some sense from it.its through all the ups and down that we learn and become a stronger person i know. i just hope i can walk through all that stages now.
things suddenly seems so screwed even though this week had been a really nice week. i mean like yeahh really was kinda happy and all this week cause loadsa thngs cheered me up. actually just small small actions and stuff can cheerme up le. just that after all that i cant run away from reality. somehow after being happy and high over stuff still must go back reality. im really learning to face it brave with a smile. really try. i dontknow if im failing or succedding.