Thursday, January 04, 2007 6:46 PM

yesterday was the FIRST day of SEC THREE
& it did kills alot even though we did practically NOTHNG. we merely had assembly and form teachers clss which we used to settle admit stuff.
& THANKYOU huixin for still staying & being the one to help me when i blacked out and nearly fainted in the morning cos i was so unwell on the firstday): & i missed my first flagraising of the year.

even when school and lessons haven really really started like in yesterday i already so felt the stress abt being in secondary three. awwman. its like so different?~
its just stressful. and like yeah im REALLY REALLY REALLY afraid. of all the lessons tht are gng come up nxt and i dont think i will cope very well. and etc etc etc. and i just realised i will b hme only at abt 5plus 6 everyday except thursday.
monday dismissal at 430
tuesday i have olvl music till 530 but its so gng drag to 6?
wednesday thrs drama till 5
thursday its either i have tuition or smthng
friday i hav drama till five and frm 530 to 7 i will have piano.
& then there will be so many tests and wht if i flunk everythng?
& i got this dumb feeling i might as well just get retain this year and repeat secthree.

and then thrs SO MUCH going thru in my mind. friendship and my back condition cos it worsened i hell lot and i cant b bothered to nor want to nor am able to bring myself to do wht i shld do abt it and stuff lidat.
iLOVE my friends esp my best friends you knw hu you are. but sometimes i cant help but feel presurred when you keep calling and asking me whts wrong altough i knw its just your act of care. but sometimes i feel like bottling up so please dont call me and force words out?

anyway thanks yujun for all tht tags cos it really made me feel better.. & also thankyou for always being thr and still calling and smsing me so late at night to cheer meup and listen.&also for msging me early in morning.loveyou korrr~

&for all my dearrr friends i promise to cheerup and be more cheerful and less depressed ths year hurh. sorry. thngs just aint working out. but thankyou anyway.

school again tml. and like wht pinche said i cant believe i've to go school five days a week now.
yeah right. five long school days. thts 5/7 of my week in school. && i still cant fit into my new clss.

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