Wednesday, November 01, 2006 7:22 PM

my fault or what?

yes i knw i changed for the worst and whtever you wanna say alright i ADMIT okayye?
i dont get y the gap and everythng and miscommunication btwn me and my parents hav became so so so freaking pathetic and BAD alright
i swear i dont mean it and i swear i did try my best to be more understnding and be tht girl i once was to them
but its either they didnt appreciate it; or they took no notice; or maybe they just hated me and im just nothng for good and i bet they'd be better off without me
i really dont get it; they say i aint tht nice; understnding; swt; caring ; so called good daughter of theirs; but i really did try to change my attititude and everythng but cant they just spare a tuny thought for me? like PLEEASE?
im sick of tht phrase of yours which keep stressing im only fourteen and getting so outta hand; i knw i might be im sorry okay how many apologies do you want? imtrying also ; not as if im doing and defying and everythng ON PURPOSE cause i swear i aint.
yeah you keep asking what will bcome of me when im 16;18 or even 20 ; take it as i'd be so very worst okay ; but like you care? i dont alright i cant be bothered with this dumb life of mine anymore and you knw it so please stop forcing miie. and dont worry okay i'd be dead by then and you shant nidda worry about wht will become of me when im 18 or whtever crap;
i dont feel like posting and venting lidat anymore; im gonna go cry my heart out and i doubt you'd even care;

just all alone