Sunday, September 17, 2006 10:24 PM

just a very short post

im totally confused now; i really dontknw what to do next already;
i knw you ppl all care alot but i just have another feeling of being left out and not cared for
im just very stress over EOY alreadyy and its 12 days away
i just dontknw how to continue nor hangon like what you asked me to anymore
i just find it totally difficult for me to stand strongg.
not anymore

im just totally screwing up everythng i did;
im just totally not doing well enough
im just totally failing whatever i tried my best to do
im just just whatever

anyway tag replies:
huixin, you finally tagg me ! yup.thanks. and no, i dont see any reason for me to love myself anymore
debi, my dear laogong; im not ruining myself lor. people dont love me and i dont see why and what i hav for me to love myself; there is still a long way to go but i really cant continue moving on anymore
jiayu, i didnt give up easily. i really didnt. i hang on for a VERY long time alreadyy. and its not just ONE problem. its more than that. some problems cant be solved.really. yanlaoshi talked to me tt day also. and she also admitted and sort of phrased that there are some problems which cant be solved. yeah. but anyway thanks so much for having the courage to share that problem of yours with me and being there always this few days.
shumei, the film is nice really. and you can be sure lor. but i cant. tts the pointe i guess
hanle, i doubt i'd ever find tht purpose. maybe i really dont have who knws?
yurong, you are sure i can. but i aint sure i will be able to. and thanks for having your beautiful name on my tagg.
amanda, i did my best but the result came out the worst. whats the pointe?
i aim for a nine sub. but decided that it will be too stressful so i said i shall be happy and aim for a triple science. but now. i have problem even for a double science. how else more a failure can i be already and EOY is in 12 days time
joeanne, yes. i took down the radioblog thng for your sake to enter my blog. and you are so not lack lor. cause you revised TEN times MORE than me already

i really feel like crying all over again. i knw its no use crying over it. but its the only way i can to vent out everythng. im tired and sick of this all already
get me out ; bring me away.

thanks for trying to understnd and understnding so much and being so patient with me even if i attitude and hangup on you again and again after promising i wont. thanks for still forgiving, loving, and showing how much you care. thanks for everythngg.
yes i knw you understnd my feelings now and you tried to help me in whatever ways alreadyy.