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Friday, September 01, 2006 7:17 AM
im supposingly doing the literature powerpoint. but somehow i just hav a sudden urge of blogging. & i knw you are reading my posts. im still beliveing in you. thats why im saying i knw you are reading because i trust you didnt lie when you say you check and read my blog very frequently. & i can tell you for one thing that i dontknw why im doing this and why everything gone this way either. last night.i asked you cld i be frank? and i did and told you what i felt totally. but i doubt you realised later on..that the tone of your replies were totally very hurting? i wondered if you knw that? did you knw that you made me cry once again when i read what you said over msn then? did it even occur to remind you that i was fragile and breaking and that whatever you said.. it just hurt me even more? im not trying to like blame and tell you anything here. im just stating what i felt since this my blog. and i seriously cant stnd it when you went on and continued later on saying its your fault. owell. its not your fault then. its my fault okay. im just a totally not understnding at all girlfriend who gets unreasonable at times. but you really expect and thought i was so so sweet and understnding hurh? im sorry. i just aint what you thought i was. i cant understnd you. not anymore.really. i cant though i tried. yeah. you want to say that i believe the others yet i dont believe you.. im sorry okay. i really hate that line you said. you phrase it as if i was so very wrong to believe them and not believe you. but i got my freedom.. and the fact is that i always had believed you so much. its just that you're proved them right and proved me wrong. tts all i cld say already. i believe you. but you want to sound as if you didnt trust i did. its hurtful and painful lah im sorry. but im doubting you already. i cant help it either. i hate the yinghui for doing all this too. |
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