Monday, August 28, 2006 11:57 AM

IT lesson now.
i still dont wanna accept whats all thats happenning
im hating each passing seconds
im just putting on a brave front
im just laughing chatting and jokking with you ppl
but inside me.
im really totally screwed, still hurt and really really feeling the pain
the feeling sux to the core.

its always lidat
i show tt im okay. i smiled. i forced a smile as hard as i could.
i took it as everything is okayy
but whats the fact is that everything is NOT okay at all.
not at all
when i let you see the im not okay side of me
the fact was that im feeling ten times WORST.

i cant stnd all this anymore
and there's still hcl test tml
im tired
really tired of everything
the oath im at now. is like what amoz just told me. i got 3 paths. but im stuck at the WORST PATH. im sitting there. unwilling to move. just staying there crying and whinning.
the feeling aint good. but im still doing it
its painful i swear.
and everything is piling.
im afraid. fear piled for many things alreadyy