Sunday, August 27, 2006 12:59 PM

im still totally feeling very hurt. and heartbroken
i dont understnd y you have to do tis to me.
i cant stnd this feeling anymore.
i cant stnd all my crying either

im way too hurt now.
im shattered inside me already
im crying so very badly.

i wanna believe you again.
i wanna trust you again
i wanna it be just you and i again
i wanna you to hold me and comfort me again
i wanna you to just be beside me
even if i hav to cry, i wanna cry on your shoulders and cry it all out to you again

but it just HURTS so much more this way
i wanna all this i wanna to happen
but it HURTS too much to even think about it
im crying so very freaking badly
i knw you are very sorry
but im just totally heartbroken now

totally shattered to pieces already
i cant stnd strong anymore
im just totally broken already
im just totally crying so badly already

i feel that the whole world is dark now
and im so freaking afraid of that darkness
im afraid
the fear is piling in me
im so afraid of how to face all the stress coming
but at the time when im feeling so afraid.
i feel so so so shattered and heartbroken
the feeling is killing me very softly.
its stabbin me
im really bleeding away already
its so hard to take or face such facts. just so freaking hard.
im stabbed hard.
its really a painful thing to experience
i dont wanna face all this pain anymore
each passing moment
i didnt feel any better
just worst
the more i thought about it
the more hurt i got
the more pain i felt
the worst i cried.

i dont understnd why all this hav to happen
and even worst
why all this hav to happen at this time

i've fallen too hard.
i cant stnd strong anymore.
i cant
i totally broken shattered hurt and heartbroken
i dont wanna live on anymore lidat
with so much stress. and yet losing my only comfort

gimme another stab and kill me
just get me out of this world where everything and everyone hurts me
its too painful to live on lidat