Sunday, August 20, 2006 11:18 PM

found my light (:

been a long time since i felt this way. and it was just yesterday did i feel completely screwed up.but i swear im feeling much better now.
i think i found my light which led me out of the darkness and maze i got lost in.

shall post again tml(:
and im gng write abt what i read from tuesdays with morrie. i think that book changed much of my thoughts

for sengchuan,
thanks so so much for making my day today, and recommending me tuedays with morrie. i knw i was stubborn at first about not believing in reading tht book at all. but i ended up finishing it within 2days anyway like got so much from tt book.
yup. and for making me find my light and being my torch when i got lost in d maze..thanks alot really. i'd try to stay strong as promised (:
'you made a difference'

for chris,
you've been like putting up with me for so many weeks already. and yet i always took it on you by maybe what u said 'dao-ing' you and being so very cold.but you always put up and tried to cheer me up and understnd regardless of all this. yup.promise i'd stop being lidat Okay?
ipromise im not gng hurt you again by being so depressed at too much of times.
im sorry for what i did but i got the yinghui you knew 2mths ago back for you

yup. and for baofang,yuling,jiayu,wuyi,yurong,hanle,xuan,manda etc, my dearest cousin cum gor (: and all my drama seniors, tony,shannon,xinyi,sunthai, for being so caring and understnding during my roughest times

'by yourself it hard, but with many ppl who are willingto stand by you and give you a big push, you will find your strength again''
i remembered this msg by tony.
and yes. for the ppl i mentioned above.thanks for much for standing by me when fell and brokedown. but with the pushes you all had given and encouraged me, i promise im gng stand strong again

'i mourn dwindling times,but i cherish the chances it gives me to make things right''
another quote from tuesdays with morrie.
yeah.i did mourn and had enough of depressing times already. but i've been given chances also to make things for the better. im taking up the chance given now to start afresh with more positive thoughts i promise.

you really did make a difference sengchuan.
thanks for much being that very patient torch cause i dontknw what i might do if it werent for you pulling me up.maybe i really might had been foolish

i shall stop all this about 'self-pity' now. morrie cld live thru all those. what im facing is probably 'less painful' already. i just got to learn to accept such facts no matter how cruel they are. even if im not living for myself.i'd still live for you ppl around me.i'd just like what baofang said. i'd bear with it for as long as i can