Tuesday, August 08, 2006 12:36 AM

the feeling came back once again.
i dontknw myself now alreadyy.
just feeling totally --blank out? and yeah.maybe lost and confuse.
im back to be SQUARE one again.yeah. again.

i knw i shld be smiling. i knw i shldnt be being lidat.
i knw im hurting you by treating myself lidat also.
i knw you are VERY TIRED of me.
i knw i knw. i cant help it either.
im sorry. really sorry.
and if you dont wanna listen to me anymore. just tell me okay and i will just stop being selfish. really.

yunting.thanks awhole lot. really appreciate it..yeah. im trying to force a smile too. but what i really want is for myself to smile the sweeter wayy.
yujun.. we HAVEN BEEN EXACTLY TALKING AT ALL for so long alreadyy..
i dontknw whats going thru in your mind either already. lets get this straight. im feeling in despair already but you hurt and stabbed me even furthur. im sorry to say it either. but i cant stnad tis either! im sorry. sms you ltr. and by the time you read tis post. i hope you at least REPLY my sms tis time