Saturday, August 12, 2006 11:27 PM

confused yeah. thats all that im feeling now
i wonder if i made the wrong decision.
should i repeat this once more time. or should i just take back my words?
i really dontknw

i knw you are reading this post. im sure you are.
and i knw i hav been totally very cold to you. im sorry alrights. really sorry
i didnt mean to thats one thing im sure. but i dontknw how to control my emotions either. and yes. im thinking too much

thats the last thing i will ever wanna do. i SWEAR.
but im sort of forced into say that also.
u knw im very hurt by doing this too. yes. shattered inside out

i need more time okayy.
gimme time to sort out my thoughts yeah. im really confused also.
i dont want this to end. but maybe its the best way out already.im saying maybe. just maybe

if i aint serious about all this. i wont cry because of you. if i didnt treasure the times we had together. i really wont.
i treasure all these. i wish they could last forever. i wish it was a HAPPILY EVER AFTER fairytale ENDING. but unfortuately. things turned THIS WAY

gimme more time to think thru all this okay. im real sorryy. but i want you to knw. i still love you and aint afraid to say this all out here alreadyy

im contracdictating


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anyway.
and to everyone else who comforted me today for all the other sms-es. esp manda,jiajia,hanle
and i wanna say. i really appreciate you alot for being there whenever i most needed.and thanks for accompanying,talking and 'tutoring' me and even taking the train the opp direction then walking me all d way to grandma's today (:
at least you i trust you for listenning so much