Tuesday, August 29, 2006 11:08 PM

changed my skin.
guess its just the skin describing my feelings for now
song of a broken heart.

its just a broken heart.
hard to heal

can a song heal a heart?
maybe i song cld describe the feelings of a broken heart
but no
i song cant heal the heart
neither can it replace

those songs you intended to send me.
i knw it was rude of me to decline the songs you sent over msn
but i knw what you are trying to do
im just purely rejecting it
imsrry
but i cld only do so
you said that song lyrics were what you feel and wanna say or just describe
i guess it didnt occur you sent me that song before already
and how sure are you.
all those are what you wanna say
all those are what you truely feel?
im sorry.but i lost the trust for you now

friends?
im loving and hating you d same time
i wont deny the hidden feelings
but i really hate you alot for causing all this at the same time
i wanna forget you
but i cant bear to
im still being stupid really.

disappointed.

i showed and told you all im okay.
but i wasnt after all
i was okay on the outside
shattered inside.

even if it werent all about YOU.
im already really stress over my sch work
i wanna cry
really
and endofyear is just round d corner.
i haven revise
i dont understnd my science at all
im just not cut for physics.
i totally sux so much at it
and my maths really sux too
great.
just totally great
and piano exam is just NEXT WEEK. NEXT WEEK. wow.
thanks xinyi for helping today. and i played for 1hour plus.
thank so much for coming a second time to help me with it yeah.cos i seriuosly wont be able to hold on for so long on d piano.
but despite my practises. i stil think i sux at it lah
just pure failing it
serious.

i cant stnd all this anymore
i cant stnd the stress sch work is giving me
i cant stnd the stress and frustration im facing with piano
i cant stnd feeling so hurt inside me


sunthai
i BROKE that promise i made to you
i fail to did what i told myself to
im still NOT BEING STRONG ENOUGH to be able to do it
im still VERY AFRAID OF IT
really.
im still particular over what others might think
im still afraid to do and face that so called major problem
im scared really.


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