Saturday, July 29, 2006 11:18 PM

YESTERDAY
i FLUNK my hcl test already.
i was like semi-conscious when i did the paper and was sleep writting.
-.-
argh i think i went out of point for the comprehension anyway.

and secondly. PIANO yesterday. TWO AND HALF HOURS. one with florence and the other one and half with lisa. hais.
florence thinks i so called had improvements as long as i practise.
but what if idont. cause i seriuosly m so schedule packed! and and there are FOUR tests nxt week!!
and then i finally understand y amanda felt that AURAL KILLS and sux. today lisa started aural on cadences with me. and i kept mixing up imperfect cadence and interrupted cadence! aural really kills.

RANDOM thoughts went thru my mind and i really felt awful actually. and as usual i did keep many things away and didnt spill them out to you. im sorry. but somethings. bottling help does help..
and thanks so much yujun for staying up till THREE AM last night to 'peii me'.eh.today morning! (: its super nice of you to do so and much appreciated!
and for shannon also for caring to listen till 12plus.thankyou also (:


TODAY
today went for the young acheiever seminar at ITE college east simei. and the main point was that ITE simei is really very nice. haha. LoL. serious. and gladys linli and i are gonna make it to ITE and then errol into simei college! yeah! LoL. haha.
we were complaining about the building and all okay. haha.

the talk was okay lah. they started off letting us watch I NOT STUPID TOO ! then aft awhile they CUT it already. but nvm i watched it already anyway.
and the first on the item was brickdance.. then 77th street Elim Chew gave a long long talk. and it really did make sense.. yeah. and maybe its all about GOALS AND STUFF.

i realised i haven knew nor thought about what i really wanted? what i need and where my passion lies.
and again. was TRIPLE science really that matters so much?
seriuosly i dont care a bit about physics. and yeah. its like. we learn so much about electricity now..we arent gng be some electrician in future right.
i know tis all about learning and having more knowledge and all. so i will still continue to be serious with my work. just that. well. i dontknow how to express this. but.owell.nvrmind.

i think i'd very much go for just double science now. today i was sort of thinking about it during the seminar. somehow. somethings that elim chew said made me had much thoughts..
y. serious. im not a science student.. and i'd b wasting my time and stressing myself to take a triple. yeahyeah.
but again. im still carrying a slightest tiniest hope that i can get into nj ip.
im being ambitious i know. but m just trying my luck. i knw the chances are low. so im not like pinning much hope . just regarding it as experience only. thats y i still hav to think and work hard for and about streaming!.

the film on the african children was very touching.hais. i dontknow what to say about it. to say i shld be contented and glad im not in their shoes or what?
but it really hurts alot to see that video. really. it hurt a whole lot. to knw that the world far outside is lidat and yet im not giving a slightest thought about it before.
i should work hard since given the opportunity?
yeah. i knw. the answer is obvious. but again im stressing the pt. i really did TRIED MY BEST. JUST THAT I FAILED TO.

yeah. trying and failing. this kinda feelings really hurts more. you knw.

then d other speaker said smth abt EXPECTING THAT = WHAT YOU WILL GET
and he was so right about attitudes and so on.

i guess i cant deny. but really today what the speakers said gave me very much thoughts.
and told me many stuff. and i can bet im gng think thru it again alot toniight

and then on the from ITE simei to MRT i met tommy lim on the bus. i was so shocked. didnt recognise him at first. it was only when i felt someone was looking and staring at me did i den realise this guy in black tee. then i was trying to figure out who he was when he said hi. then i realised its tommy!
okay. my impression on this person is like very deep can. cause i rmb P6 he did the worst thing! rmbed that tommy once brought thouse very small froggs to sch before and scared me with them. i screamed in class! it was freaky! and then kaijin and titus was also part of that whole frog story.wasit? i tink so.

spore is so small/ unexpected meetings with ppl happen very frequently i guess.
the other time was freakier i think. i acutally bump into that guy whom was on the same tour as me to japan at bugis. okay. really shocking and paiseh. cause the whole tour he was like. okay nvrmind. just freaky! i've been bumping to ppl i know and nvr expect to meet at the not expected time very often these days.haha

hais. primary sch memory was really memorable. i mean. yeah. it really was fun. despite PSLE year. really it was still enjoyable and all. and such tricks things happen very often. esp P6 esp with tommy in class. yeah. still remember april fools and teachers day what 6G did. haha.
life then was lively. and i miss primary six days.

hmms. i think i better go do some hw before slping.tml will be out i think.byee.
and i cant believe time flied to fast. its 12.11 now and im supposingly to sleep at my bed time of 11.28! L0L.

i want so much to believe you.
take it as if nothing had happened.
to continue the way things did and all
really want it that way
but somehow. just in a few minutes.
great changes could be caused.
i really dontknow my own feelings now

tuesday: HCL oral exam
CSP test
thursday: PFT 5items
friday: geog common test

and then the hwk is so piling. and then i hav to revise my work also.