Tuesday, July 18, 2006 9:08 PM

ohmygosh. i cant believe this.

today i got home feeling real real not happy.yea. so called not happy. got scolded for 'talking on the phone too often'...and then mum said dad is very unhappy with it and so on and so forth. and then i cant be on the phone as often. and then my parents actually believed that im not studying not doing hw, not revising..and staying back after sch till so late everyday to like just waste time..
yeah. i admit. i stayed back till verylate..so that i dont have to go home early. i give all sort of dumbest excuses.

argh. i dontknow.
cant stand it.

and now im totally lost. just now i was still feeling real high mood. when i first posting..but then i stopped to do some other stuff.and im back here now. with a total upset mood.

i was real thrilled when i recieved nj letter just now.yeah. real glad. at least..yeah. i found a sense of direction and goal well. sort of.. and i was really glad..then i felt good. and played the piano..and spent on hour on piano..30min on exam pieces..and 30min on other songs im obsessed with...and it really felt good..the last 30min..to play the pieces lidat. continous..
then i was still happy when i was talking on the phone..

and then some stuff happened?
im confused now. VERY. dontknow what i shld do. just total LOST.
let me try working it out? i will.

shall end my post here? really dontknow how to describe and vent my emotions for now.

weyy.and dont play with lighters! and dont burn your room down okay. LoL.
this reminds me of the eds musical song..
''playing with..fi-re..a defi-nate NO''
LOL. what m i doing?

LOST AND CONFUSED