Thursday, July 06, 2006 7:02 PM

Eds was from 2.45 all the way to 5.50pm lidat today...lets see. 3hours?
thats alot already.

and then i was sitting at the back of the room for 9/10 of the time. practising the pieces myself. and was half crying and i doubt anyone cared.

owell. what ever. i dont feel like posting.
im just feeling so stressed and frustrated today.

i guess. the whole of EDS could see through how i felt. even Ms Wee and Ms Cheong.
Ms Cheong made me seat down and talked to me.. as if she was coucilling me or what. but i got frank with her and told her how i felt. xinyi over heardd.
and MsWee was real nice to gimme a card. and i felt somewhat better. at least i know tt the teachers understand that...
here's what ms wee said:
dear yinghui,
i know that it has been a diffucult period for you. And as the saying goes, as the going gets tough, the tough gets going.press on! cheers, mswee'06

im sorry if i cried once again. in d past, it was always eds tt made me feel better and more accepted.and now its the total opposite.
maybe they didnt know. but ever since the semifinals of tis musical, i had been crying almost every session of drama...

sometimes, i really dontknow if crying helps. if it does. i long shld be better.

today is super scary at drama. its like.. ms wee, ms cheong, d vocal instructor,jacklyn... then xinyi..the ten other ppl also there. and it really very stressful to play infront of jacklyn and also the vocal teacher and 10 other eds ppl ... its like..plus an additional vocal teacher around..its scary.and i kept stumbling on notes...

i really dontknow what to say now also. but that i cried real hard just now..
and that its real nice of YOU to call during drama session to listen and talk just now.thanksalot.

another very rough day.
cant i just be strong and continue braving through? i wonder how long more...