Saturday, July 15, 2006 2:43 AM

disappointed.

today was eds finale. and its like. yeah. we got a hundred dollars. yup.one hundred.to phrase it in a nice way. we got the 4th position? or shld i say we didnt clinch the top 3 prizes at all. and its like. its like sort of wasted efforts? i mean. but still..sure. we really did had a nice time during rehersals and all that. but again, really. we eds really did try our best already and really anticipated a BETTER result that this.

its really like a great big disappointment. and to think about it. its sort of really UNFAIR.
all of thought so. somehow the judges dont know or dont understand what ORIGINALITY is. and then stated that the muscial have to be ORIGINAL. and so me and xinyi like composed the songs with some her from MrTanKingMing. and then its so ORIGINAL. but somehow, the rest of the sch mostly. most of them used CDs AND the real MUSICAL thing MUSIC. which is really UNFAIR.

and then i could only say. really felt bad and all that.
sunthai, its not as if im blaming myself or what. but ppl, im really sorry that i kip stumbling on the notes. and then its like i caused xinyi to miss out one line. and then its like. maybe after all the problem lies in the composition of the music itself. and after all. the base and like the music was like sort of composed by me and all that. and xinyi and MrTan had to try so hard to make so much changes to it to help make it more presentable and all. and so. maybe the composition wasnt that great and that cause it? im sorry. but really did try my best already.
and then sunthai. dont be like disappointed or what okay. u are the one telling us we did great and all that. but somehow. today really could sense you aint feeling very okay with tis. well. everyone isnt.. but you really wasnt your cheerful self today and it sort of worrying to see you lidat.. cheerup kie. im trying to too (:
and DONT BLAME YOURSELF.
tony.somehow i figure you are reading my post also.lol. okay. so just wanna tell you thanks alot for comforting me on the bus when i was like feeling so bad about it and all that. thankyou. really appreciate. and about lastnight.. im really glad to hear everything from our msn convo okay. just thanks alot for everything.comforts and encouragement..

disappointment still contains. and we felt that the effort was wasted. we turned back and look at the time spent and all. really. we thought tis compeition meant alot. but again. we put in and had faith and all that. we told our self we could make it. we had confidence. but then. we fail, we fall. falling is a painful process it really hurts alot.

i really did put in my best for this compeition already.im sorry if anything gone wrong and if its like started from my side.

went out after that.. its just lidat. i wasnt in that high a mood. well.dont expect me to be able to. then its like.yeah.lidat.

i dont feel like posting anymore. just that today was like bad okay. and i seriuosly FLUNK my science physics for sure. the paper was sort of EASY. but u know what. every single qns except that flask and air that qns. all of them i STUDIED and are in the NOTES i made for myself. the point is just that i simply forgot everything. just my mind was blank. i know the ans. but dontknow how to phrase it and pen it down. so its like. really. im so failing my first physics paper!

really. sometimes. we work hard. hoping for the desired results.and then we fail to get what we want. tis kinda feeling i faced it TWICE today already. and it dont feel good.
drama, my science test. its really killing me i feel like crying again.

chris. im really glad you took the time.the time to go out today and esp the time last night to explain the physics stuff to me. and then u stayed up till so late with me last night or wasiz morning? okay fine. morning.. thanks alot really had been a great help. and dont blame yourself for what happened yeah? its really okay.

pure disappointment. im sorry