Wednesday, July 05, 2006 9:32 PM

didnt go for drama today.
was feeling real real tired and stressed up. really couldnt really take it today anymore. rang tony up.. and he sort of excused me. i really very stressed over our drama musical if thats what u people are asking..
i really tried my best le..but just cant seem to play with keyboard at all. i really tried my best already. i slpt at like so late last night at two plus trying to get things right. but im just sorry. my fingers cant seem to coordinate with keyboards! lol. and then im like..really dontknow what to compose liao...
anyway, thanks alot tony for FINALLY understanding and at least trying to comfort. thanksloads. i promise i will still try my best de..but just gimme some time lehs. please!

im suddenly feeling that many things are pilling up all of a sudden..
its sort of real real stressful. but im really trying to tell myself that i hav to walk on. im already trying to learn to just take up the courage and walk on.. its just that on the way out of the cave, i slip and fall too many times.. i dontknow how to phrase tis. but im trying to walk on the way i should already.
i know ppl around me care.. even those whom actually can dont care about me at all are concern. it sort of told me that i shant let them down by not doing dumb things?
i donknow how to say, but shannon, tony, sunthai,sc, xinyi... what u seniors had been telling me this while i really appreciate. really.. at least i know that other than the presense of classmates and friends, there are seniors there also..

im telling myself..that i shall just take the stress piled on me. but again, i failed to. i got encouraged by you ppl..but after awhile..i slip and fall..

zoey and debi had been emphasizing to me that stress is created by myself. its not anything else but myself..but somehow, i dont know how to control it or what. it just came naturally to me smth lidat.
and then im the kinda gal who dontknow how to be easy on things, and then i cry. and then it didnt help at all. whats to be done still got to be done...hais.


zoey's QUIZ.
Instructions:
1. Do the following without complaints.
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you have completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's TagBoard to say he/she have been tagged.
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!"then do this.
i've been tagged!
Current...
Mood: stressed up and pretty troubled
Taste: feeling tasteless
Clothes: t-shirt, shorts
Desktop: EDS picture
Toenail colour: N.A.
Time: 9.59pm
Surroundings: My Own Room
Annoyance: Many stuff tat causing me to be so stressed up.
Thoughts: homework to do, upcoming test. EDS Musical!
First...
Best Friend: i dontknow..
Crush: private and confidential.
Music: ?

Last...
Cigarette: I DONT SMOKE!
Drink: Soup i had for dinner
Crush: i said its Private and Confidential already.
Movie: Superman returns
Call: chris
CD played: Baofang's CD she burnt for me, Disney Songs
Song played: my ringtone!

Have you ever...
Dated one of your best friends: -
Broken the law: Nope
Been on TV: not very sure..
Kissed someone you dont know: nope

5 things you are wearing: t-shirt, shorts, spectacles, earrings and undergarments? LoL?
4 things you did today: homework, practised the keyboard for eds talked on the phone.had lessons in school, and ..haha. i dontknow any other specifics ones already
3 things you can hear right now: the television, sound of the notebook keyboard
1 thing you do when you are bored: have thoughts run thru my head.


thats all. i have so much more to complete before i can sleep.

thanks ppl.